Graduation

I feel so left out of the graduation buzz.

I am excited to graduate too... but I am at such a different place than my friends, I don't feel like I'm allowed to be a part of the hype. I don't have to worry about where I'll live or how I'll get medical insurance or if I can take a job I want if it doesn't pay enough. I don't have to decide whether or not to go to graduate school. I'm not planning a wedding or worried I'll spend the rest of my life as a spinster. I'm just graduating.

I'm walking down an isle and being handed a diploma. That's it. It feels so anticlimactic. I've worked really hard the past four years, and the graduation events don't do the hard work justice. I always thought graduation would be the ultimate symbol of the beginning of real life, but my life has already started. I won't have all the fears and insecurities and responsibilities that graduation has always symbolized thrust upon me. I'm just graduating.

At this point, graduation is significant to me because I won't have the burden of homework, I will be more available to my husband, I can be a more attentive wife, I can take on more of the housework, I will be less stressed. I will have time.